I am a man who believes in magick.  In infinite possibilities.  I am a man who has learned that we are limitless.

Many of you have been following me and know the story of my life, my loves, who I am, who the men I have loved and continue to love are.  For those of you who don’t know, this is a very short version of that story.

In 2011 I met my husband, Alex.  We fell in love and began an amazing journey.  In 2014 we met Jon.  And again we fell in love.  And the three of us began a new amazing journey.  We created a family that included two cats, Ash and Henry: named after characters in Evil Dead 2 cus that’s just who we are, and our little dog Paco.  We live in a tiny yellow house in Hollywood.  Not really the good part, but we love it here.

In 2015 Alex and I got married.  We introduced Jon to our family and friends.  We went to Vancouver and Berlin and Spain and France.  And I learned the true meaning of love and family and friendship.

Life has a way of getting complicated and things changed.  We changed.  I ended up moving into my own room in our house.  Alex and Jon continued to shared a room.  I met a beautiful man in London, and fell in love and began a new chapter of the adventure, traveling first to London every five weeks, and then to Berlin.

But Alex and Jon and Jeff are family.  Brothers.  Alex and Jon are the best friends I have ever had.  When people ask me about poly relationships this is what I keep coming back to: that maybe they change, maybe the way the relationship exists changes, but the love and the bond never changes.

I am bonded to Alex and Jon in ways I will never be to anyone else.  Brothers.  Family.  Best Friends.

On February 9th, 2018 Jon went missing.  On Febraury 19th they found Jon’s body.  My best friend and brother, the man I have loved for the past four years, was dead.

And so now we are in this new stage of life.  I continue to fly to Berlin, where I am held in love and beauty, where I am safe.  Alex and I live in this magickal little house with our tiny animals, and Jon…well, I like to think Jon is just right there…because we are his family.  And he is ours.


So I will find a way to write about this.  In the various magazines I work for, and on this blog.  I will try to find meaning in something that feels almost unbearable.  We will bear it.  We will hold it.  Hot and full of pain and fury, but also full of love and beauty: full of Jon.

Thanks for reading.  You can follow me at Facebook and on Instagram, at leavelljeff.

And Hey! You can check out my book, Accidental Warlocks, at Amazon! Your support would be amazing!

5 thoughts on “About

  1. Thank you for sharing your personal lives. I just found your blogs today, as I tried to research Gay Triad Relationships. There’s no manual. We all go out to unchartered territory and find that we’re discovering daily. I had no idea the emotional toll opening a 6 year monogamish relationship into a Triad would be….the love….THAT DAMN WORD, LOVE…and the joys, pains, yearnings that word brings to us all! Thanks again. Your blog has filled me with hope, inspiration and courage and the wisdom to know the ups will be there and so will the downs! And those downs can be the building blocks for better ups!


  2. Subject: Vice news Blog “Why My Completely Open, Boundary-Free Relationship Works”

    Hi, I was really looking for more information about why your completely open relationship works and less about your recanting of your extramarital adventure in London. Not to say it wasn’t a fun read, just not what I expected. There wasn’t much said about the feelings and reactions from the other men involved. The impression I got was, “this works because you have dived completely into being selfish.”

    Not that its a wrong thing, perhaps that was the message, but I still wonder what the reactions were.


    1. Hey Terrance, thanks so much for your message. So, First, I would never do this if I hadn’t of already known that it was allowed in my relationship. As I say in the story, my husband Alex already has his own BF outside the relationship. Jon has had his outside experiences. We are totally and completely allowed to do this kind of thing. Regarding the title of the story, I don’t come up with that. The Vice Editors do. But I would say, my point in the story is we are in a new experience. We are trying to trust each other and to realize that much of my fears and insecurites (I don’t talk about it in this piece but I do in others of mine…I’m the jealous one. I’m usually the one who gets upset) come from my fear that I will be left, and so far I haven’t been. I don’t think Noah counts as an extramarital affair either. He is someone I am dating. Someone I’m allowed to date. Someone I want to see more of. But again, the reactions of Alex and Jon were supportive. They encouraged me to go back to London and see where this thing leads. Which is what I’m doing. Again, thanks so much for your comment!!!! That’s so awesome you wrote!

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  3. This was beautiful. I don’t know what happened to the sexual revolution part of gay rights and LGBTQ activism, but I’m glad some of us folks are trying to keep it alive. If it doesn’t work for you -fine. There are tons of options. But let slutdom LIVE!


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